Day: January 7, 2006

How quickly visions of grandeur dissappear. But oh well, it is better to have loved and lost than to not have loved at all. To be on the brink of falling into something magical, memorable and long-lasting and have it all come crashing down around you, without an explanation and without a word goodbye. Yeah, it hurts. It hurts like hell but sadly enough its not the first time. The bigger the risk the bigger the reward. I have no regrets. I’ll would have still embarked on this journey/friendship/relationship given the way things have ended(?). I don’t even know if they’ve ended. All I know is that classes start in 2 days and if i don’t get my act together i’ll not be getting my degree b/c i’ll be failing out of law school. I can’t have another semester like the one that just passed. I was really hoping that this new year would start with new love, new hopes, new dreams and new aspirations to greatness. I have everything except the first. I’ve gone years without it before, i can do it again. Like I’ve been told a thousand times before what does not kill you makes you stronger. I am a better woman for having gone through this pain. The four days of crying and wallowing in self pity are over. Its a new year and damn it its a new beginning. Whether people like it or not, my life is going to be great! And if you don’t want to be a part of it anymore, I can’t very well force you now can I? Like I said, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. I’m still hurting but "this too shall pass."