Selfish

Somewhere in the past 25 years, I have managed to unwittingly train myself that things are suppose to come easy for me. That the things I want should be just so because it is the desire of my heart. Regardless of what my Heavenly Father has promised me, I don’t think I can wait idlely by for my blessings to be delivered. In this past year and two months that I have fallen head over heels in love with this man I believe to be wonderful in so many ways but still far from perfect, I realize that I have been walking around with a sense of entitlement. That because this is what my heart desires, everything should fall into place. That because I believe that this is God’s Will for us, nobody would dare be against it. I realize now how very narrow-minded and selfish that view point was. God’s very Word says that the effectual, fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much. Right there tells me what I need to do to make this journey through my relationship a great one. I have to pray, and not just any prayer. My prayer has to be effectual – based upon God’s own words and promises; within His will for my life. My prayer has to be fervent – without ceasing and with a sincerity and desperation for God’s will to be done in my life. Lastly and most importantly, I have to be righteous. I cannot accomplish anything without righteousness. I must strive for righteousness in all of my ways. Often I feel like as long as I’m using the gifts that God has given me to grow His ministry, everything else that I do with my life is up to me. WRONG! Everything in my life needs to give glory to God. Having realize my talents and my ministry doesn’t mean that all that is required of me is to work within those confines. I must do all I can to show the world the light of God shining within me. And here is where I have failed. From this point on, I’m realizing that just because it is promised to me, doesn’t mean that I have no part to play to release my blessings.