Psalm 125:5 and 6

“Those who sow in tears shall reap in joy. He who continually goes forth weeping, bearing seed for sowing, shall doubtless come again with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him.”

This verse is speaking to me because Day 3 into my journey, I made a brash decision and it’s causing me to cry. But even before today, as soon as I relinquished what I was holding onto into the Hands of the Almight One, on Saturday night, the tears have been flowing. I cried when I pray, I cried when I think about my friends’ testimonies. I’m going into the Word of God with prayers and with tears because I’m desperate for Him and I am desperate that the work He has started take complete hold in my loved ones’ lives. I’m crying in need, lifting up the supplications of my heart to the Lord because I want to preserve my friends, to change their hearts so they actually turn to Him, instead of just talking about it. So this psalm reminds me that I’m going forth, weeping and sowing seeds of prayers in my life, my ministry and the lives of those I love the most – and as such, I will surely reap those seeds in sheaves and come back rejoicing. This psalm comforts me and tells me that God understands the language of tears. That because I am not just crying like one without a hope, that I am crying because this is my most heart felt desire and I am laying them at His feet with prayers and supplication, that my innermost desires will surely be fulfilled and I will have the full course to glorify His Name.